the search

An underlying search
Vaguely conscious,
silently hidden in the heart
loosely buried amidst,
mind's mindless clutter,
stealthily lodged
In our every day fears,
Joys, hopes and sorrows.

Hammers hard,
it does at times,
this quest,
Like thunderous heartbeats,
Noisy, loud, ear splitting,
The shrieks and screams,
Of questions that get no answers

other times It promisingly
Drowns, dives, sinks, dies out..
entertained, enthralled
By love, beauty, music, song and dance,
Magnificence, royal. Elegant thoughts,
Stories of exotic lands.
Of success, salvation,
journeys that promise goals!

But only almost,
For the quest..
it springs again,
Renewed, relentless restlessness.

Where will it end?
These multi coloured
Vibrant meshed circles
of warps and wafts....
love seeking security
Security seeking success
Success wanting love's solace

Death frees,
But
Its not even death
that releases,
As much as death,
of fear of death!